A Typical Day for us.

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My nephew poor baby, loves me to death and looks up to me. Seeking guidance, from my experiences in life. I start off by saying to him every time he asks anything, “You know I was crazy right.” He always, laughs and says that’s why he likes to talk to me and I tell him the truth. I have done and been in such different circumstances than most people, unless you led my lifestyle. Then even, probably not. At the time it seemed so normal to me because it was.

When I look back on my life, I could never have thought up some of the things that have happened on my own. Why, I have to write about it.I will probably drop dead one day out of the blue, because of how I lived before now.Someone, should benefit from the mistakes I made before I croak.

My next few books should be interesting reads to most people regardless, of your backgrounds.I find interest in it as I recall and sometimes can’t believe it happened.”Angel” is nothing like “Family Tree” why I have had trouble with it. I guess, it doesn’t have to be the same. But, for the sake of continuity, I thought it should be somewhat similar and it is somewhat. Okay, I am over that torture.

I decided to break up the stories into smaller books.novelettes, because the stories are so different and each one is a book on its own. Episodes, for sure. I like them though, it is the presentation of each one. I like to move through time out of order. Don’t ask me why, this is how it comes. Then tie it all together in the end. Some semblance of meaning to an outcome.How I got to where I am and the time that passes so quickly on the way is enough for me to contemplate. I was anything but, an Angel except in my heart.

Emotions are a powerful thing, I believe my books will demonstrate the ability they have of influencing our decision making. Enough said.

Anyway, back to my nephew. He said “Auntie, I finally got laid.” Like a good aunt I said, “Did you use protection.” He said “NO.” “I was licking butts, and everything.” I stopped him and said “That is too much info.” I am not one of your friends, I gave him the lecture on how one can still pass STD’s with oral sex and blah blah blah… Keep your condoms on hand; having them available is half the battle. He agreed, after I was done.

A few hours pass, I say to him , “How do you think a man would feel, knowing I shave the hair off my chin.” I laugh every time I think of it. “Why you doing that?” He says to me. Looking like I just confused him.Plucking them is just annoying and when I go to have it waxed, it is just as dreadful and she still plucks.”That makes sense,” he says. “How do you get a close shave?” “Mine grows back too fast, I hate it.” I explained. “Everyone’s does, he said.” There is no man secret to tell me about shaving hair off of the face and keeping it off. Damn.

I thought of electrolysis but it isn’t as effective on darker skin. The machine picks up the darker hair opposed to skin color. For women of color this option isn’t a good one. “I have a beard Auntie, I definitely don’t know anything to tell you accept to try shaving cream.” I think that’s what you need he explained.”Quit calling me Auntie, I told you.” I hate it sounds so, not me anyway. .Aunt Angie, is out of the question too; phonetically I can’t stand the way it sounds. I get tripped up repeating it.

“What can I call you, Auntie.” While he laughed out loud amused by my frustration with him. “Figure it out, I trust you will one day.”

“Between, you saying that and the hairs on my chin, anyone would think I was a hundred years old.” The weird thing about it is I don’t know why, I care about age recently. I never did. I don’t try to be younger than I am or anything like that. It’s annoying in fact, to me when people don’t act their age. I was mumbling these rants to myself.

Brandon came over and hugged me then said, “Auntie it’s not your chin men are looking at.” We both started laughing. “I had a girlfriend with ‘Beef curtains’ I loved her to death.” I was afraid to ask what the hell that means. I was frowning, like i didn’t know. “You know, when your vagina lips are to long like wings.” Never mind, I mumbled and turned around laughing as I walked away. I am done with this conversation. I don’t see the comparison. “You know about that don’t you.”

“No, why would I know about it.” I never see women’s vaginas. All men in the films, I saw or worked on. “Oh that explains it.”

He went back to working on his script, I went back to working on mine.

Now in paperback

“The Trees Outside”

About the author:

Andrea N. Carr is a born storyteller.
Her soul carries the passions and disappointments of a nation and her writing bares faultless witness to the truths of our time. Her debut release Family Tree The Novel is a gripping ride into the heart of the average dysfunctional family. Her profound insights into the human condition echo Alice Munro, The Color Purple and J.D. Salinger’s Catcher in the Rye.

She has been writing emotionally driven, self exploratory stories since 1999 from her homes in Orange County. Growing up in Santa Ana and Huntington Beach, she later moved to Los Angeles California after leaving a Mental Health Career, as a Psychiatric Technician for the State of CA.

Connect with Andrea online.
http://www.andreancarr.com
@swakgrafx_carr

The Trees Outside

Family Tree the Novel: Family Tree

Authored by Andrea N Carr
Foreword by Melissa J Moores

Often as human beings we find ourselves on the outside looking in on a given situation: a friend’s problems with work, the death of a distant relative, even watching police rush to a major car accident. However, one of the most difficult aspects of humanity is being able to look within ourselves and be honest about what we see there.

The Trees Outside is an introspective look at those forces affecting the character Angel Harper, from Andrea N. Carr’s debut novel Family Tree the Novel: Family Tree. Here, she not only helps readers look introspectively at Angel’s life through her poetry and previously edited material, but she reveals the naked truth about her writing as a medium for self-expression.

This is a must read for all followers old and new of Family Tree the Novel. Miss Carr bears her soul and that of Angel’s in a truly enlightening short work. ~ M.J. Moores, OCT

Publication Date:
Jan 18 2016
ISBN/EAN13:
1523242604 / 9781523242603
Page Count:
24
Related Categories:
Literary Collections / American / African American

Twisted tongue

My children’s book The Bad Squirrels, is a tongue twister. My poor editor has her hands full with me. I am crazy about some things. I am happy as long as it reads well keeping the flow and rhythmic pace.

By the time each edit is finished I have to twist more words around in a circle. Til I am insane, folding squirrels into knots lol. Then kicking them out all over the pages.

I like it though, it’s challenges my sanity time to time. Not sure why I have this rhyming thing going on. I started out not rhyming then it doesn’t feel as right.

So I base the story on the non rhyming one. Then insert some fun and cleverness into the story along with a lesson and there you go. I’m about crazy by then but, it’s great.
I am ready to do it again, that is what is crazy.

I learned more from this story than anything, I have ever written. I am not sure why but, the structure of a story became very important to me. I listened more to my editor this tine than any other time or editor before.

I like to go with my instincts about what I write. Even if it’s wrong. Because I like to trust myself with my writing. Figuring out where to draw the line is a common denominator dealing with me.

I remember when I didn’t want paragraphs because I liked the way it flowed better. I didn’t want the reader to be able to jump around in the story. Treating the book like a album or mixed taped with no song titles. One long mix so it’s read the way I intended.

I think that theory is why I like these children’s books so much because I can present it as I intended without breaks.
I think

I have the longest sentence in the world in this book.
But, it’s great the best one in the book.

I will comment later, with part of it. See what you think, I am brain dead now. The time was exactly 11:11 when I finished this post. What is that? 🐾🔰

I am fearless

Though I am afraid, right now.

I am fearless.

Even, if I die. I don’t fear death.

I will write the best stories about my life.

During, the remaining days of my life.

That is all I need, now.

I hated you for a time.

I don’t even do that anymore.

Making you the cancer in my life never helped.

The Bad Squirrels

 

I have a new book coming out!

Yay, it’s a children’s book one of twelve I have written to date. I really like it.I think kids are ready for my type of children’s books now (laughing).

I have been told in the past – parent’s will have some explaining to do after reading your books to their kids. Good parents and kids should talk about stuff.

Don’t you think?

Is happiness temporary?

The fact that I believe there is no such thing as happiness is debatable to most. Life is a series of challenges, with that said where does happiness fit.

Even with the best coping skills, it isn’t my idea of what happiness should be. My happiness is bliss, perfection at its best. Everything is good forever for everyone but, the thing about my particular happiness is its unrealistic and
why I believe it does not exist or does it.
This explanation of happiness is my own. Perhaps, not your understanding of what it is. But, what matters most is I believe it.

Let’s get real. Happiness comes from within. I believe that also. This is the compromise to my blissful version that does not exist.

In bliss we don’t work or want for anything, everyday is Christmas our birthday etc. We live our lives feeling everyday is a celebration. Giving gifts for no reason other than to be intentional in someone’s life.

I say we because, if I can’t share my bliss it isn’t true to my idea of happiness. I need others to feel this way also. I want gifts and intention from others to bless me with things that are acts of kindness.

A kiss on the cheek. Raking the leaves in the yard. Making breakfast bringing it to me in bed. And cleaning the kitchen afterwards. Lol.

My friend used to do this and tell me “I made the breakfast.” “You got to eat also” I responded. I stopped him from making me breakfast.

Back to internal happiness. I call on it through meditation because what acts as happiness to others is not mine with the best of intentions behind it.

I am not thrilled about cleaning up the mess in my kitchen left behind. Give and take like the happiness existing to most people.

What can you live with? I suppose.

“Family Tree” – FilmFreeway

https://filmfreeway.com/project/181017

Drama – Feature
First script
122 pages
Narrative
“Family Tree”

“Family Tree” by novelist Andrea N. Carr with a family saga where an incarcerated woman gains a four-day release to attend the funeral after, her sister’s suicide while babysitting her 13 year old son.

Story uncovers dark secrets with suspense and pacing that is in comparison to Raymond Carver. I conducted an interview with the author on the power of storytelling to create empathy and change. Cristina Deptula, Literary Publicist

Why should people read/watch this story?
Compassion.
To help understand the human condition, the story is presented from one perspective. Angel is the main character narrating her thoughts, opinions and feelings. As in life, we see only, what we see our truth is our own interpretation – with emotions affecting how we feel in the end about the actions or words of others. Regardless of their intent.

I think, it isn’t realized the impact we can truly have on others. I love this story, for helping to bring about this realization. Family is the most meaningful relationship in life influencing who we become, whether wanted or not, we can choose to be the opposite or the same.

Best Independently Published Book October, 5th deadline

 
Dear Self-Published/Independently Published Author:

I hope you will consider entering the Fourth Annual Shelf Unbound Writing Competition for Best Independently Published Book, sponsored by BlueInk Review and the Association of Independent Authors. Details and rules are here: shelfmediagroup.com/pages/competition.html.

The winner, finalists, and more than 100 notable books from the competition will be featured in the December/January 2016 issue of Shelf Unbound magazine. The overall winner will receive $500 and a year’s worth of full-page ads in Shelf Unbound (rate card value $6,000). The winner of the Pete Delohery Award for Best Sport’s Book will receive $1,000.

Deadline for entering is October 5. Please let me know if you have any questions. Thanks.

Margaret Brown
Publisher
Shelf Media Group
National Book Critics Circle Lifetime Member
margaret@shelfmediagroup.com